This is a picture of me. I am the digger, and all that is around me is my world; my trauma, my pain, and my past. I have been tearing down and rebuilding me one brick at a time.
This is not an easy thing to do. Because underneath all that debree are memories, and emotions that get stirred up with the dust. I must choose which to keep and which heal, and let go.
I have learned you can not repair a home by ignoring the problems. Overlooking the leaks and cracks only lasts so long before it's just time to bulldoze and start fresh. These last two years of my life I have been doing just that. I will be honest, I had no idea how badly I was in need till my house was barely standing in front of me. Once I took the time to actually open my eyes and look. My heart, my home. The sagging roof, no self esteem. Cracking walls, depleted joy. It was all in desperate need of a do over.
So this is me saying you do not need permission for a do over. All you need is some elbow grease, a tribe of christian friends, and a whole lot of grace to get it done. Grace is needed so that when you see a crack, that has been filled in more times than you can count, grace can give you the strength to say "no more", and let it go. Don't keep revisiting the cracks, it will only make them bigger.
You are the only one that lives in your home. Take comfort in that. Others opinions don't matter. No validation needed, only God's.
Build you, do you. We have such a very short time here on earth, let us use it wisely.
Jude 1:20-21 But you, dear friends, by building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of out Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.
This is not an easy thing to do. Because underneath all that debree are memories, and emotions that get stirred up with the dust. I must choose which to keep and which heal, and let go.
I have learned you can not repair a home by ignoring the problems. Overlooking the leaks and cracks only lasts so long before it's just time to bulldoze and start fresh. These last two years of my life I have been doing just that. I will be honest, I had no idea how badly I was in need till my house was barely standing in front of me. Once I took the time to actually open my eyes and look. My heart, my home. The sagging roof, no self esteem. Cracking walls, depleted joy. It was all in desperate need of a do over.
So this is me saying you do not need permission for a do over. All you need is some elbow grease, a tribe of christian friends, and a whole lot of grace to get it done. Grace is needed so that when you see a crack, that has been filled in more times than you can count, grace can give you the strength to say "no more", and let it go. Don't keep revisiting the cracks, it will only make them bigger.
You are the only one that lives in your home. Take comfort in that. Others opinions don't matter. No validation needed, only God's.
Build you, do you. We have such a very short time here on earth, let us use it wisely.
Jude 1:20-21 But you, dear friends, by building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in God's love as you wait for the mercy of out Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.
